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The Road to Repentance — A Selection of Thoughts and Practical Guidance for Aseres Yemei Teshuvoh from HaRav Shach, zt'l

The Power of Making a Specific Undertaking

A few days remain until Yom Kippur; let's use them to the utmost. Chazal tell us (Kiddushin 49) that if "a person enters into a marriage `on condition that I am righteous,' the marriage is binding even if he is utterly wicked because he may have entertained a thought of repentance." Repentance can be the matter of a moment — and we still have two days!

But it's not enough just to think vaguely about repentance. A person needs to pick a particular area that needs improvement. Everyone knows his own shortcomings. [For example,] everyone understands how important prayer is yet our prayers are not what they ought to be. Chazal (Brochos 6) tell us that the posuk in Tehillim (12:9) speaks about "sublime matters that people are careless with" [which Rashi explains is a reference to prayer]. Everyone should thus be very careful to pray properly.

Torah study is of supreme importance. A person who is empty of Torah study, who is not immersed in his learning and is not absorbing it, is incapable of coming to grips with anything. Chazal (Succah 46) say, "In the way of the world, an empty vessel can receive and a full one cannot; Hakodosh Boruch Hu's way is different. A full vessel can receive yet more, and an empty one cannot hold anything."

Once one has acquired knowledge of one masechta, one can learn and acquire another one. Everyone can make progress in this way, without any exceptions. Everyone can learn one masechta after another.

Come, let us take things to heart. The Rambam is a work of halochoh. In Hilchos Teshuvoh, the Rambam defines Elul, Rosh Hashonoh and Yom Kippur. These are halachos in the fullest sense, just like the halachos of Shabbos and others — there is judgment; there is Rosh Hashonoh. If a person merits he is sealed for life in accordance with his majority of merits. If not, his verdict remains in abeyance . . . all the laws of Teshuvoh are halachos like any others. Let's take heart and improve."

"And My Salvation" — On Yom Kippur

The Days of Judgment are at their height. The Day of Judgment is great and awesome! Shmuel Hanovi was afraid of it and worried, "Perhaps I am chas vesholom being called to judgment?" (Chagigah 4). We though, are apathetic. We think, "Today is Monday, tomorrow is Tuesday and that's how things will continue."

I heard from the Chofetz Chaim ztvk'l — and the Beis Halevi ztvk'l writes the same thing — that people always think that when they'll be questioned about the things that they did wrong, they'll be able to explain themselves with various excuses. For every sin, they'll have a partial explanation.

Hashem's Court however, is like an earthly court, with attorneys for the defense and prosecution. When a person looks for an excuse to explain his behavior, he will be shown how his own actions contradict his arguments.

For example, when the Court questions him about Torah study and demands to know why he didn't learn Torah he will say, "I was busy," or "I was tired." Then he'll be shown other things that he did and will be asked, "How is it that you weren't too busy for that?"

This is what Chazal mean then they say that a person will be "chastised according to what he is." He will be shown the contradictions in his own behavior, according to his level and he will have nothing to say.

So it is every year, every Rosh Hashonoh and every Yom Kippur. We stay the same!

The truth is though that things don't stay the same. Everyone knows himself that he isn't any better than he was a year ago. Perhaps this isn't true of everybody; I don't know enough to be able to speak for others but each individual knows very well about himself that he's no better than he was last year. And not being any better means that he's for sure worse.

Is there anyone who speaks out about bitul Torah? Are we afraid of neglecting a moment's Torah study? Of course we're not. And how should we be? We've already repeated that sin so many times that it's "become permitted" in our eyes! Do we remember to make a daily reckoning of how much time we've neglected Torah study? It's the same with prayer and with other things that we don't pay any attention to and that are not even spoken about. Only when we want to get away from someone and avoid him we feel able to tell him [in protest], "This is bitul Torah!" But do we ever think about it in our own minds?

The Pri Megodim writes that this is the meaning of the posuk, "The person who justifies the evildoer and the person who demonizes the righteous man — Hashem abominates both of them." If a person keeps a double standard, being lenient towards evildoers while being stringent and demanding in judging the righteous, it is abominable. Such is Heaven's justice; a person is judged on the contradictions in his own behavior.

Let us all take heart together. If we take stock of our situation and don't ignore it, we will merit Hashem being "my salvation," which is the atonement of Yom Kippur. If we live up to the realization of Hashem's being "my light" on Rosh Hashonoh, thinking things over and making an accounting, we will merit His being "my salvation." Otherwise, it is impossible to come to a king, or even to one's friend and say, "Forgive me!"

Why should he forgive us? If we have sinned, is He compelled to forgive? We felt free to act as we did; does that make us deserving of forgiveness? And among us are some that have repeated the same sin twice or three times!

I remember many, many decades ago, the mashgiach [HaRav Yechezkel Levenstein ztvk'l] speaking in the Kletsk yeshiva on the eve of the Yomim Hanoro'im and relating that a bochur came over to wish him a shonoh tovoh and ask his pardon. The Mashgiach told him, "Why should I pardon you? Perhaps I'm not called upon to pardon you? I don't pardon you yet! If you tell me what specifically I should pardon you for, I'll see whether I have to pardon you or not. Perhaps I don't need to?"

We think that repentance and forgiveness can be taken for granted. People go over to one another on Yom Kippur and beg each other's pardon and tell each other, "Forgiven." People think that they can go before Hakodosh Boruch Hu in the same way and ask Him to "forgive us, atone for us," without thinking about the severity of what they've done. They think that by doing so they've fulfilled their obligation to repent and that that is called repentance.

Take heart and let's become stronger!


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