The tear was finally rolled down my cheek; maybe it was the
other tears waiting behind it. The Rosh Hashona prayers did
not allow me to hold back this time. There had been so many,
many, many years of trying to have a child, only to bring us
the hurtful news. We courageously kept growing somehow, while
constantly working hard at convincing ourselves that
everything is for the best.
We did not know what effort would have the most
effectiveness. Certainly everything was important, the
segulos and the medical treatments. Every failure
hurt, and there were many such failures, but we were given
hope that we should keep trying.
That winter, following the Rosh Hashona prayers that allowed
the tear to appear, we were given news of a positive result
and finally the day came when our child was finally given to
us as a present from Hashem.
Prayers there always are, and always will be. But tears are
not always readily come by.
Yet the tear continues to be created. At the birth, it was a
restrained joyful tear. Last week, after being asked
permission to be the person to return a found jump rope, a
tear of relief came to my eye. Singing dayenu together
brought a tear of pride. Moreover, the most frequent tear is
a result of fear -- what does the future hold for our child?
And this tear requires the strongest emuna of all, as
everyone surely knows.
We are especially grateful to the shaliach of Hashem,
a Rov who gives of his time and expertise to advise childless
couples. He has the proper understanding of the halachic
stipulations, along with the constantly changing medical
treatments.
For those seeking such help, his number is: 02-500- 1501.
I shed a tear recently, before Rosh Hashona, hoping that my
prayers on that auspicious day be fruitful. My little one
wanted to make me promise that I wouldn't cry again on Rosh
Hashona. But who can withhold, who can suppress such
effective, priceless pearls of a pleading soul, so welcome
when they do appear?
[Ed. I had the privilege of speaking to this Rov who, in his
twelve years of counseling, has had the zchus of being
a `grandfather' to over 500 children! May they increase!]
