Excerpt from Part I, printed last year
The tear finally rolled down my cheek; maybe it was the
other tears waiting behind it. The Rosh Hashona prayers did
not allow me to hold back this time. There had been so many,
many, many years of trying to have a child, only to bring us
the hurtful news. We courageously kept growing somehow, while
constantly working hard at convincing ourselves that
everything is for the best.
We did not know what effort would have the most
effectiveness. Certainly everything was important: the
segulas and the medical treatments. Every failure
hurt, and there were many such failures, but we were given
hope that we should keep trying.
That winter, following the Rosh Hashona prayers that allowed
the tear to appear, we were given news of a positive result
and finally, the day came when our child was finally given to
us as a present from Hashem.
And this year, I am pleading in my evaluation, "Am I properly
deserving this gift? Am I fully aware and appreciative of it?
Every minute of it?"
Some moments I cherish, hopefully never to become dull in my
memory:
I had a coughing spell and went to drink some water. I hear a
high little voice bless me and say, "Refua sheleima,
Ima."
Our little one was asked to prove her claim that Teddy knew
the answer to a question. Well, of course! "Hashem told him
so."
And another precious gem: "When shouting out the answer to a
song: "Who created the animals?" a firm answer resounded,
"Not ME."
*
Now it is easier to cry and shed my perpetual teardrop, but
it is one of thanksgiving, too, a tear of joy as well as a
tear of hope and prayer for the future. May all of my tears,
and yours, and yours, be only tears of joy.
*
We are grateful to the shaliach of Hashem, a Rav who
advises childless couples and has, Boruch Hashem, some 1500
`grandchildren' to his `credit.' He has the proper
understanding of the halachic stipulations, along with the
constantly changing medical advancements and treatments.
For those seeking help, he may be contacted in Jerusalem at
02-5001- 501.
[May this year be one of many blessed events.]
