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IN-DEPTH FEATURES
Fiction for the Pesach season
Naftali Reichenberg's beeper sounded loudly in his pocket.
Naftali's foot was still on the gas when he picked up the
small screen and quickly read the message: "Bnei Brak, 6
HaNeviim St., Cohen Family. Boy bleeding from a head injury
after a fall."
Naftali, known as Tuli, was used to sudden calls that
disrupted his busy day. He knew that today would be no
different. All other urgent matters would have to be pushed
aside. The Shabbos shopping, which was always pushed off to
the last minute, would have to wait a little longer. And his
wife? Naftali was sure that she would forgive him after she
heard what happened. She was used to dealing quietly with his
sudden disappearances after the beeping — anytime,
night or day. She was used to waiting at the Shabbos table
laden with every kind of delicacy. Tuli's wife had accepted a
long time ago that the hot soup would get cold and the
children would become restless. Without complaint Shuli, his
wife, would finish whatever task her husband had started
before the beeper sounded.
Tuli hesitated for one second. Maybe he should let the other
volunteers handle this emergency. After all, the number of
volunteers had recently grown a lot. Should he continue on
his way like nothing happened?
In his mind Tuli pictured the frantic boy and his hysterical
mother desperately trying to stop the bleeding with a
makeshift bandage. Everyday occurrences for a medic, yet Tuli
still couldn't help being moved by them. Especially since his
proximity to the location meant that going required very
little effort whatsoever. "35 is on the way," Tuli
confidently announced into the walkie-talkie lying on the
seat next to him. He skillfully passed a hesitating driver,
made an impressive sharp left and turned on his siren, full-
volume. Tuli felt that he made the right choice.
The red light was still blinking on Tuli's car when he pulled
his first-aid supplies and oxygen balloon from his trunk and
rushed up the stairs to the old apartment building. He
stopped at the second floor next to a simple wooden door that
bore a sign saying "Cohen". No one was waiting for him at the
door; everything was unusually quiet. Tuli's loud knocking
brought no response. The stillness was strange for a
situation like this. The quiet rang in his ears in place of
the expected cries for help. As a last effort, Tuli reached
for the doorbell, causing a loud noise to shake the walls
and, apparently, the house's inhabitants.
"Who's there?" It was the first sign of life Tuli heard from
the apartment. Tuli recognized the voice as that of an older
man. It resonated with hope. Why wasn't he opening the door?
"Come in, come in," urged the tired voice as if it were self-
understood that the visitor should enter without being told.
The door squeaked on its hinges in response to Tuli's touch.
It's creaking matched the voice of the apartment's unknown
occupant.
"Is it you, Dovid?" Tuli heard the man's voice laden with
expectation. "It's about time that you came to visit old
Grandpa Baruch . . . like in the good old days."
Tuli froze. His first-aid kit was still dangling from his
shoulder, its weight bothering him. For a minute the
paramedic felt silly carrying all his equipment. It dawned on
him that he had come to the wrong address. "Come in. What's
stopping you?" The tired voice urged Tuli to enter. "Grandpa
Baruch doesn't like to wait a lot, you know . . . "
Tuli put his bag down carefully and made his way down the
narrow, dimly lit hall towards the impatient voice. He
quickly realized that crossing the short distance would take
longer than expected due to the objects strewn across the
floor and the cheap lighting that did little to repel the
darkness.
Tuli's legs made their way around boxes full of old books and
newspapers. The floor was covered with reeking clothing as
well as various and sundry objects that had long ago become
unidentifiable. A package of tissues lay next to a pair of
torn socks that had somehow rolled away.
Despite the poor lighting, it was impossible not to notice
the thick layers of dust that covered everything. The dust
penetrated Tuli's nose and threatened to enter his sensitive
lungs. He tried to prevent the upcoming sneeze, but it
overpowered him. Tuli knew that this was a bad sign. A
sneezing attack would soon follow. Tuli was not on good terms
with dust, especially when it was concentrated in a small
area and in such large amounts. He forced himself not to
retreat at the sight of the two large, overflowing bags of
garbage that blocked his path. Who could possibly live in
such filth? How did the situation manage to get so bad?
"Dovid," called the man, more impatiently this time. "How
much time does it take to get over here? There's only one
room," he uttered hoarsely, "It's impossible to get lost."
But it's so possible to get stuck, thought the disheartened
Tuli. This path is both the shortest and longest that I've
ever walked in my life.
"Is it you, Dovid?" The face was wrinkled, full of suffering
and framed by a thin beard. The man's gaze appeared confused.
He lay in a high iron-framed bed. The springs creaked and
moaned under his movements. Grandpa Baruch, as he called
himself, sat up to get a better look at his visitor. "Why are
you standing there doing nothing?"
The reprimand was sharp. "It looks like you haven't been here
in ages. Don't you know that I need my glasses to see you?
Without them I'm completely blind. I don't hear well, no
matter what, but at least I have glasses to improve my
vision. Get moving."
The old man continued to issue commands while Tuli stood
there rooted to the ground. "It's true you haven't been here
in a very long time, but I forgive you. You deserted me for
whatever reason. You stopped coming. Maybe I made trouble,
but I promise you that from now on you'll be happy that you
came. You know that I don't have anyone besides you." The old
man continued scolding.
Tuli hesitated. He felt like a small, helpless child stuck in
a quandary. On the one hand, he couldn't leave the old man
without explaining his sudden disappearance. On the other
hand, he was on his way to a place where they desperately
needed his help. And, on top of everything else, the shopping
for Shabbos wouldn't magically get done by itself.
"Is there an injured boy here," he asked, feeling like a
complete idiot. No other question came to him at the moment.
After all, he came to help a little boy and that's why the
dispatcher sent him.
"An injured boy? What came over you?" replied the old man
angrily. "Don't tell me that you're becoming a little senile
at your age, like me. Sometimes I trip over my own two feet
. . . but there's no boy here. I almost forgot what a boy
is. My only son left me long ago; you know that."
The old man sighed, accepting the situation. "It's also not
such a bad thing," said the man to himself. With shaking
hands, he placed thick glasses over small, pale-colored eyes.
"I see it's impossible to rely on you these days."
"I'm sorry," Tuli replied, knowing that standing in one place
for so long made him look ridiculous. He tried to move a step
forward, but couldn't make his legs cooperate. "Apparently I
. . . "
"Don't be sorry. It's Grandpa Baruch that has to be sorry
now." From the other side of the room the man gave him an
appraising look. With glasses, he appeared a little more in
control of things. He stood up and steadied himself. Tuli
thought that Grandpa Baruch looked much younger than when he
was lying in the bed with the tangled sheets.
"You know," said the old man, making his way closer to Tuli.
"I thought you were Dovid, my former helper. A good neighbor
arranged for him to come help me and to keep me company.
Sometimes I can't manage the shopping. Taking care of the
house is especially hard."
He pointed in despair to the mess around him. Next to his bed
stood a large collection of disposable cups filled with some
unidentifiable liquid. Cookies had turned into a foul mush at
his bedside. Tuli felt his stomach churning. He tried to stop
the sneezing fit that threatened to begin. "We were friends,
Dovid and I."
It was apparent in the old man's voice that he wasn't
checking to see if his guest was listening or not. His quiet
presence was enough. "But it seems that the friendship was
one-sided, because one day Dovid disappeared into thin air,
leaving me with all this mess. He didn't even say anything
— just left me as lonely and helpless as before."
Grandpa Baruch let out a heart-wrenching sigh. "No one ever
comes here . . . " The old man talked quickly as if his
allotted time would run out before he'd manage to finish
talking. "Sometimes I'm so bored that I even start to talk to
myself. Shaul, the neighbor from upstairs, comes down once in
a while. He brings cookies, milk and bread. He's not a spring
chicken either. His wife also passed away many years ago,
just like mine. But at least Shaul has children who care for
him, who visit sometimes.
"My son Gavriel, he should live and be well, forgot about his
elderly father long ago. He never sets foot here. He thinks
too highly of himself. Gavriel doesn't care about anyone.
Ever since his mother died, he's been trying to find his
niche, that's what he said. Maybe he'll get married some day
and give me a little pleasure. But I'm sure that he ran away
in order to be far away from me in order that I shouldn't
drive him crazy. I don't even know where he is! So Old
Grandpa Baruch lives alone without anyone caring about him at
all."
Baruch was standing very close to Tuli now. Despite the old
man's hunched back and bent shoulders, Tuli was surprised to
see that Baruch was almost as tall as he. They looked at each
other eye-to-eye and the old man's sinewy, vein-ridden hand
rested hesitantly on Tuli's shoulder. "You know," he said,
"when I put on my glasses I thought for a minute that a
miracle happened and Gavriel came to visit. Maybe he even
remembered that he had an old father somewhere who needed
him. But miracles don't happen every day. I just pray that
maybe they'll still come someday for old Grandpa Baruch.
Maybe, just a minute . . . "
The old man's alert eyes stared at him intently. "If you're
not Dovid and you're not Gavriel, then who are you and what
are you doing here? I know that I sometimes get a little
confused because of my age, but I'm sure that I never saw you
before. What are you doing here?"
Grandpa Baruch's hand still rested on Tuli's shoulder. Tuli
didn't try to remove it. He understood that the old man was
dying for human contact.
"That's exactly what I wanted to tell you," mumbled Tuli.
"Only until now I wasn't able to," he added in a softer
voice, trying not to hurt the sweet old man's feelings.
Tuli's heart broke seeing the depth of Grandpa Baruch's pain
and loneliness. It hurt him to think of the terrible
conditions in which Grandpa Baruch lived. Knowing that there
was no hope that the situation would improve only made it
worse. Tuli felt unexplainably angry at Grandpa Baruch's only
son for leaving the old man helpless. The son didn't even
arrange for help for his father. Rather, Gavriel left his
father in deplorable conditions that endangered his physical
and mental health, possibly even shortening the old man's
life.
"I have to run," Tuli said as he looked at his watch in
alarm. He couldn't believe that he'd spent half an hour in a
pointless chat with the old man while so much waited for him
outside. He had wasted thirty whole minutes in the apartment.
No, thought Tuli when he looked at the suffering old man. It
definitely wasn't a waste of time.
"Be ashamed of yourself!" Tuli chastised himself. How
could he call this conversation pointless? Isn't it real
rescue work to help someone pining for a little companionship
and basic human decency?
"Don't go." The old man tried to stop Tuli with a voice
arousing pity. Tuli worried that Baruch would soon burst out
crying, and knew that he wouldn't be able to stand up to the
sight.
"I would stay, sir . . . " Tuli stopped himself mid-
sentence.
"You can call me Grandpa Baruch," he replied, exposing two
rows of yellow teeth. "Everyone else does. Now please, don't
leave me." His rough hand brushed Tuli unintentionally.
"Don't you understand? I've been sick a little recently, been
weak, and had foot pain. I haven't been able to go out a lot.
I'd usually go to shul, daven, learn a little. I'd do
a little shopping, do everything slowly since I have time and
no one's waiting for me."
Grandpa Baruch laughed uncomfortably. "But now I've spent a
lot of time in bed. I haven't seen anyone in a week. You're
the first person that's come by. Don't leave me alone again.
I beg you."
Tuli felt his heart melt. He couldn't leave the old man alone
like this. How could he return to normal life after this
meeting? A meeting that happened completely by mistake.
"I'll come visit," Tuli heard himself promise. "Don't worry.
As soon as I have time, I'll come back. I'll also send
someone to come clean up a little bit."
Tuli felt that he needed to add something concrete to his
promise in order to alleviate the old man's look of
accusation.
"G-d bless you!" Grandpa Baruch's face lit up. It appeared
that he began to trust Tuli a little more. "Maybe you're my
miracle, just maybe." A little hope entered the old man's
voice.
Tuli began to make his way towards the door, before the old
man could change his mind and try to prevent him from leaving
again. "It was a pleasure to meet you, Grandpa Baruch."
Tuli extended his hand in a handshake, his equipment bag
already on his shoulder.
"Likewise!" It was difficult for Grandpa Baruch to escort
Tuli to the entrance. The older man looked at the paramedic
intently as if to remind Tuli of his promise. Grandpa
Baruch's light blue eyes didn't leave him, simultaneously
demanding and pleading. Those eyes stayed with Tuli even when
he left the building and entered his car. Only the persistent
noise of his beeper brought him back to a different world.
"There was a mistake in the address," the dispatcher informed
Tuli. "You didn't hear the cancellation call?"
"How could I," Tuli wanted to retort. In his rush, he had
left the communication devices in the car and thus missed the
cancellation notice. When Tuli pressed the black button on
his beeper he saw the correction. The correct address was the
Cohen Family on 8 Nevi'im Street, very close to the Baruch
Cohen that he had just met. One building away but two
completely different worlds, thought Tuli. "It wasn't a
mistake," Tuli said out loud. "I think I went to just the
right place."
A humorous quiet emanated from the dispatcher's side of the
walkie-talkie. Tuli's sense of humor was only understandable
to him. Tuli felt that he wasn't even able to explain what
went on. It's true that Grandpa Baruch didn't need emergency
attention as it's commonly understood, but he definitely
needed a different kind of rescue, no less urgent.
*
"Grandpa Baruch, are you there?" Tuli's happy voice filled
the small apartment. It even gave the somber, peeling walls a
new light. "I have a cheesecake for you. It's out of this
world and I know how you like cheesecake."
"Of course," the resonating voice became livelier in Tuli's
presence. "It's good you waited until I finished my afternoon
nap. Now I have all the time in the world."
In a minute Grandpa Baruch was sitting up, enjoying a piece
of the delicious cake. The old man beamed at Tuli. Months had
passed since "the mistake" that Grandpa Baruch called "a
miracle." Tuli didn't disappoint. He made room in his busy
schedule for weekly visits and, as with every other project
that Tuli started, he stuck to the visits admirably.
"It's impossible to recognize the place, son." Grandpa Baruch
grinned over the cup of tea that Tuli made him. Recently
Baruch had taken to calling Tuli "son," and Tuli didn't
correct him, as it gave the old man so much pleasure.
"You don't mind?" Grandpa Baruch would always ask after he
treated Tuli like a son in place of the one that deserted
him.
"You understand, I don't have anyone else besides you in the
whole world. At least you could be in place of Gavriel."
Grandpa Baruch could never thank Tuli enough for his weekly
visits and the cleaning help that he arranged. He appreciated
that someone took care of the ever-returning mess that he
somehow managed to make. Tuli's children adopted Grandpa
Baruch as their third grandfather. They even came to visit on
their own accord.
Words couldn't express the appreciation the old man felt for
the new taste of life after so much boredom. In the beginning
it was difficult for Baruch to change his ways and to part
with the "treasures" that had taken over his crowded living
space. But Tuli prevailed. He enlisted his children to clear
out the narrow one-room apartment.
In addition, Tuli's sons would arrive as punctually as a
Swiss watch to escort Grandpa Baruch to shiurim. The
old man would come to gradually accept this, too. Thus Baruch
was forced to overcome his tendency to hide behind his own
four walls. Grandpa Baruch had found a family at long last. A
real family that warmly invited him for Shabbos and holiday
meals. Finally Grandpa Baruch found the family that he never
had.
Grandpa Baruch felt like a truly free man when Tuli invited
him for the Pesach Seder, the first of many. Having
Grandpa Baruch was to become a tradition for the Reichenbergs
who were known to have many guests.
The old man didn't even want to think about the previous
year's Seder. He was fortunate enough to have been
hospitalized over the holiday for a severe case of pneumonia.
Otherwise he would have probably spent the week alone with
his dirty, peeling walls and disgusting floors for lack of an
invitation. No one invited Baruch, not even Shaul the
neighbor, who was probably too busy debating which of his
children's offers to accept. At least Grandpa Baruch was
surrounded by other caring Jews in the hospital. There he had
a communal Seder. A charitable organization took care
of all their food and holiday needs.
"What are you thinking about, Grandpa?" Tuli asked gently. He
was used to the old man's retreats into his own private
world, used to his changing moods.
"Whatever happened, happened!" The grandfather responded,
banging his fist on the rickety wooden table as if it would
help to distance the painful memories. "With your help it
won't happen again," he said, in a gentler tone. "Now we're
going to all leave bondage and become free." Grandpa Baruch
smiled hopefully.
*
The table looked regal, adorned with polished silver, just
the way Tuli liked it. Tuli had a weakness for silver and
would buy more at any opportunity. His friends helped him
fill his display case — it was amazing how much it
could hold. The impressive collection was polished in honor
of the holiday and it gave a special luxurious feeling to the
dining room filled with guests.
Everyone was there. Tuli's in-laws had come from the distant
north to spend the entire holiday with their children like
every year. Tuli's own parents also planned to stay the week
— and of course there was Grandpa Baruch. Tuli made
sure that each guest was given comfortable quarters in the
family's large house. He also helped each person feel
comfortable with the others. Tuli's own children enjoyed the
company, thanks to the special attention they received.
"I'm here by accident," Grandpa Baruch was accustomed to say,
jokingly. Everyone was familiar with the incident that
brought Grandpa Baruch to the Reichenbergs half a year
earlier and made Grandpa Baruch a member of the family, a
part of them.
"A crucial mistake," agreed Tuli, though no one knew how
momentous it would be.
"Careful, Grandpa," Tuli said as the old man started coughing
while drinking. He managed to participate through the fourth
cup even though it was obvious that the effort made him
dizzy. Baruch attempted to finish most of the cup, leaning on
the shiny pillow. It had already absorbed quite a few stains
from Baruch's previous drinks.
"And it happened at midnight . . . " sang Tuli in the
familiar Pesach tune which made Grandpa Baruch smile
tiredly.
"Midnight?" Grandpa Baruch had never managed to keep his eyes
open that late before. Judging by how tired he felt, Grandpa
Baruch thought that it was already morning.
Just then the singing began and, suddenly, the grandfather
was completely alert. He listened intently, completely
absorbed by the particular way in which the melody was sung,
and by the way the words were pronounced. Baruch's gaze
became more and more dreamy as he, too, joined in the
singing. His rough voice became more melodic than ever
before. He sang louder than everyone else without even
noticing.
Grandpa Baruch sang ecstatically, transformed. He swayed from
side-to-side, not noticing that he had unconsciously lifted
his hands up high. Everyone became quiet and watched as
Grandpa Baruch sang in dream-like ecstasy. Tuli noticed,
suddenly, that he and Grandpa Baruch were the only ones
singing in a beautiful harmony. Their voices melted into one,
an exceptional outpouring of emotion that touched the
soul.
"Grandpa Baruch?" Tuli's tone was fond of the old man who was
still immersed in his sweet dream-like state far away from
the table and from them.
At that minute Baruch opened his eyes. He looked like he was
returning from a distant majestical place. "How do you know
that tune?" he asked in a mixture of amazement and
trepidation.
Grandpa Baruch didn't wait for an answer; he was still caught
up in his own private experience. "That tune has been passed
down in my family for generations. I've never heard it sung
anywhere. It reminds me of the good old days when I was
really free. When I was back with my own family, at my own
Seder table. My children . . . " He looked down,
inwardly, as if he were going back, there.
*
Baruch's wife, Tzipporah Cohen, had been an exceptional
homemaker and a perfect wife. She had hands of gold and her
mark was everywhere. She was a great educator and
concentrated her talents on her two children whom she loved
dearly. Unfortunately, she was unable to give over everything
that she wanted before she became ill at an early age. Her
dreams of a large family were never realized and Baruch Cohen
was left bereaved and lost after her premature death.
He had been so dependent on Tzipporah that he felt like a
tree uprooted. Baruch felt that the responsibility was too
great for him to bear. He was unable to get out of his
crisis. His eldest was twelve at the time and the youngest
was four. The two boys were thrown this way and that, along
with their father.
The eldest had been extremely close to his mother and was
unable to digest the loss. He remained traumatized for a long
time. The little boy was not of the age to get pulled down
and remain stuck, but the loss was too great for him, too.
Baruch knew that if only he himself had been stronger and had
managed to stay above water, everything would have somehow
been all right. But he sunk and the house that had formerly
been full of spontaneous laughter due to Tzipporah, now
became a cold place full of suffering.
Baruch was responsible for the house falling apart. He was
responsible for the gloomy atmosphere that prevailed, and he
would feel guilty ever after over the destruction of his
family.
Apparently someone informed the authorities that the children
were walking around neglected and hungry. It was especially
difficult for the younger son who desperately needed someone
emotionally healthy to look after him as he was only in
school a few hours a day. They talked about the father who
had ceased to function. Soon a stern-faced social worker
appeared at the door and informed Baruch that he would have
to place his children, or at least the younger one, in
temporary foster care until Baruch could get back on his
feet.
Baruch felt the last ounce of strength leave him. He didn't
even have the ability to object. "Okay," he agreed in a
feeble voice, lacking hope. "At least the children won't
suffer. At least they'll start to live, not like me, half-
dead."
To Baruch's great surprise they didn't rush to take the
children from him. They arranged for the older boy to stay at
a nearby dormitory during the week. The younger boy was
farther from him, but Baruch didn't have a reason to
complain. He knew that in his state he had nothing to give
them. Baruch knew that the arrangements were good for them
and he hoped that one day he would be able to pick himself
up, recover from his terrible loss and reunite the family.
It never happened. The days passed and Baruch felt like a
machine on two legs. He lived, breathed, worked and even made
Shabbos for the two boys who would come home at the end of
the week. Never more than that. No feelings, no excitement,
no pleasure in his accomplishments. He was a robot in every
way.
He clung desperately to what was still left, hoping to mend
the rifts, but to no avail. Baruch couldn't give of himself
to his children. Baruch's eldest son always blamed his father
for his lost childhood and for the family that he never had.
Most of all, Gavriel blamed his father for walking around,
listlessly. The embarrassed boy felt abnormal everywhere.
Things could have continued like that forever except that one
day the social worker came and informed Baruch that the
youngest was being taken away permanently. The boy was nine
years old. Apparently the foster family had become really
attached to the boy and wanted to make him completely theirs.
They didn't want the boy to be somehow connected to a father
who was unable to function.
Rina, the sweet-faced social worker, turned out to be as
tricky as a snake. She came to Baruch's house almost every
day for a week and tried to convince him to sign the adoption
papers. It would be in the boy's best interest, she said, to
turn Baruch's son into someone else's child even though the
latter didn't give birth to him.
"Think of the boy," she would say. "He needs someone
permanent to lean on, someone strong. He needs a clear
identity. He'll flourish in a family that will be completely
his. See for yourself how happy he is."
Baruch's head said yes; his heart said no. He couldn't bear
the terrible idea and all the pain it would bring. His own
self-interest wouldn't let him sign. Baruch knew that it
would be best for the boy — his son was doing so well,
even succeeding in school and making friends. The foster
family put everything they had into him, their only child.
The child was polite, and brought up well. The boy could only
benefit from stability in the future. Besides his purely
selfish interests, Baruch didn't have a single good reason
why he shouldn't agree.
Baruch suffered from health problems at the time. He felt
that he had aged prematurely and knew that that was how his
children viewed him. He didn't have anything left to give
them. After much wrestling with himself and with the help of
the social worker, Baruch signed. Baruch only hoped that one
day his son would know of the big sacrifice he made for
him.
Baruch signed at a moment of weakness. He would regret
signing for the rest of his life. As more and more time
passed, the emptiness grew. Baruch knew that he had made a
mistake that no father was allowed to make. He tore himself
to pieces over giving up his son. Why couldn't he have been
stronger and demanded that things continue just the way they
were? The middle path was the best one — the adopted
family would have a son of their own, and he, too, would
retain his boy. But as of the moment he agreed to hand the
boy over, the family received a son and he, Baruch, was left
with nothing.
Baruch tried to undo the adoption. He begged and pleaded with
the social workers. He tried to convince them that he had
made a mistake, but it was too late. His son was already
overseas with his new parents. Since adoption law didn't
require adopted parents to maintain contact, there was
nothing the social workers could do. They didn't even know
where the new family was living. Baruch was left with his
guilt and an older son who turned his back on him and barely
even recognized that he was alive.
*
"Grandpa Baruch?" Someone shook him a little too forcefully
and Grandpa Baruch was all too happy to forget the nightmare
that had so taken over his life. "Are you okay, Grandpa?"
Tuli's kind eyes looked at him, concerned. "I thought you
were about to faint. You looked so . . . We've been trying
to wake you up for a few minutes already."
"I'm fine." The old man's wrinkled face softened when he saw
the circle of worried people around him. "I was only
remembering the olden days when I last heard those tunes."
"You never told me that you had another son whom you put up
for adoption," Tuli remarked in a shaky voice. "You only
talked about Gavriel."
"It's an old sore that I didn't want to open. I guarded the
secret with all my might." The man's eyes were moist. "I was
embarrassed by what I did. Embarrassed that I signed. More
than thirty years have passed and I still haven't talked
about it with anyone."
"How do you know the tune that was known only to my family?"
Grandpa Baruch repeated his earlier question.
Tuli hesitated before he answered. He looked around until he
saw his parents' nod. Only when he got their permission did
he answer carefully. "It's a tune from my father's house. A
special tune that he would sing every year at the
Seder."
Tuli didn't say more. His eyes were moist. Tuli looked into
Grandpa Baruch's light-blue eyes framed by the thick glasses.
The realization hit him.
"I'm also adopted," Tuli whispered, overwhelmed by his
revelation. "I was adopted at age nine and then we
immediately went to the States. Since then, I haven't seen or
heard anything from my father. I was told that he wanted to
put me up for adoption and that he signed the papers happily
since he wasn't able to raise me." Tuli finished, in
shock.
"We also identify." Mira and Shlomo, Tuli's adoptive parents,
looked compassionately at the old man. "Social Services
didn't tell us that you were under so much pressure. They
told us that you signed willingly because you yourself wanted
to put Tuli up for adoption." It was obvious that Mira and
Shlomo told the truth and that they didn't know how to
compensate Baruch for the treachery done to him. "We stopped
sending you letters because we were told that it was
pointless."
Silence filled the room. The festive atmosphere became filled
with tension as thick as marble. Tuli's parents were hit the
hardest by the news. Their faces, drained of color, looked
almost sickly. Tuli shook uncontrollably. His wife, Shuli,
was to shocked to say anything, now that she was face-to-face
with her true father-in-law for the first time.
The news paralyzed Baruch Cohen. It appeared that his heart
couldn't handle the turn of events. It was too much to
digest. Here he was seeing his own son after thirty years.
And his son was himself a husband with a family. Incredible.
The man that had been helping Baruch over the past several
months was really his own son.
"I need a glass of water," Baruch said, holding his chest. It
wasn't clear if the pain was from the news or if his heart
really couldn't handle the shock.
"Grandpa Baruch, Dad," Naftali pronounced the magic word
hesitantly. He hugged the bent man's body tightly. "Just
don't faint now." He expertly held the shaking man's hand and
silently tracked his father's pulse.
"You're from Hatzolah, no?" The old man smiled. He looked at
his son with pride. "Naftali Reichenberg — Cohen, I
think I'm starting to feel better."
Awkward smiles. Confusion was written on the pale lips of all
those present. It seemed that the normal proceedings of the
Seder would be forgotten with the momentousness of the
night. "We have a real grandfather! We have three real
grandfathers now!" Eight-year-old Shimon shouted. In Shimon's
excitement, he had yanked the tablecloth. The sound of
breaking glass filled the air.
"Mazel Tov; Mazel Tov!" The family cried, feeling that
the breaking glass shattered the unbearable tension in the
room.
Someone began humming to himself the generations-old tune
that brought the whole revelation about. Slowly the others
also found themselves joining the indescribable singing that
melted hearts and burst all barriers. Even Baruch, who was
starting to feel better, joined in. He glowed as if
reborn.
"I always dreamed of a son like this. I prayed that I would
miraculously find my real son and now I finally have."
Baruch looked lovingly at Tuli as the singing subsided.
"Tonight I've even found real grandchildren."
"And all because of a little mistake in the building number,"
added Tuli in a shaking voice. "A mistake more significant
than any other."
A sudden harsh sound blotted out Baruch's low sobs and hid
Shuli Reichenberg's emotional outpouring. What a great time
for the beeper to go off. "Excuse me," the pale Tuli said,
"Someone lost consciousness on the street next to ours. I
have to run."
"My son," Baruch Cohen said smiling with satisfaction, "just
don't go to the wrong address again. You never know what a
mistake like that could cause."
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